I recorded a video about this one time I *catfished someone… and I was really apprehensive about posting it. I uploaded it to my YouTube Channel last night and the response has been mind blowing. The videos I struggle with the most, always have the most emotional and heart felt responses from my viewers.
I remember how hard it was to hit “Public” on “What Men Love and Hate About Dating Fat Girls” and “My Breakup Story + Tips on Single Motherhood”. But I did make them public and they are a major part of the reason my channel has grown as quickly as it has. I also gained die hard fans through being so open and honest in my videos.
Still… talking about how insecure I was and how much I lied as a teen is something I don’t enjoy reliving. But I’ve come to realize that discussing my own mistakes and talking about my journey to self actualization is something that so many of my viewers NEED. This entire subject is embarrassing and something I thought I would take to the grave. But alas, my fear of public humiliation was pushed aside by my desire to inspire girls to believe in themselves and lead fulfilling lives, no matter what.
The only reason I’m posting this video on my blog is because of the positive response I’ve already gotten from so many of my fans. I would never have imagined the amount of girls and guys coming out and saying that they did or are doing something similar because of their lack of self-esteem. It sucks feeling alone, but it’s sadder knowing just how many people go through this same crap throughout their lives.
It’s incredible to think of how far I’ve come. That girl that was lying about who she was and what she looked like 10 years ago, doesn’t exist. She is nowhere to be seen. Just try to get me to hide this slightly misshapen mug of mine or stop talking about myself. It won’t happen. I’m not where I want to be, but I’m on a pretty marvelous road getting there.
This whole catfish situation is one of the biggest reasons I take great efforts in making sure I’m never in a situation where I need to lie. I HATE lying. I’m remorseful for what I did, but I’m getting my comeuppance now. Many people have stolen my pictures and posed as me on different websites, forums, and dating profiles. It’s disgusting but I can’t help but think that I kind of deserve it.
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*Per the über realiable website UrbanDictionary.com (Excuse me, whilst I snicker)