Scott counts the stitches in his wrist a few days after he attempted suicide. Scott said many times he should have died overseas, and during a fight with his girlfriend, she agreed. “I just grabbed a pair of scissors… tried jabbing them into my neck, but they were closed,” Scott said. “So I grabbed a nice kitchen knife and cut my wrists.” He said he believes every combat vet struggling with PTSD has a contingency plan. “Every one of us has a suicide plan. We all know how to kill, and we all have a plan to kill ourselves.”